Being Gay: Sin or Burden?My life is torn between heart and mind;Do I really sin with every blink of my eye?I wondered if my sexuality countedTowards my sins left in a heaping mountain.So I closed my eyes to block out my lifeTo see past this world of evil and strife:I imagined myself in a world without sinWhere I tried to imagine the life that I'd live.What would be the same and different?How I would feel about my old life spentIn hatred and the failings of man,My past life spent in deserts of sand.I imagined this world of so-called perfectionBut deep in my mind, I begged the questionsWhat is sin? Does the Bible show?What is evil? Does the world know?Is it the Ten Commandments? Murder and Greed?Is it being gay, drinking beer, or smoking weed?If so then my imagined worldWould not be like this life unfurled,For I have done the things of which it speaksI have sinned just in this past week.But what if sin is a definition?A human idea with human disposition?What if the stuff we shouldn't doA
Hopeless Hopeless I feel so hopelessNot knowing why I'm hereNot knowing my purpose hereWondering top what to do with myselfWanting to end my lifeI feel so hopelessFeeling unlovedAlways breaking down cryingDepress and always aloneLetting the pain take over meI feel so hopelessTelling myself i have no one Thinking that I'm alone Thinking to myself I will never bee happyKnowing I will never feel this so called happinessI feel so hopelessI wish I can end myself and escape
FearI don't always see the light I used to inspire.I fear my touch and my words leave more to be desired.Not only in the world's eyes has my shade darkenBut I fear to you I maybe beyond broken.I constantly feel like I can never give you enoughAnd in my mind I sometimes see you seeking it through others.I've opened my heart, soul, mind and body to you and I'm told it's not my all.If you expect perfection I'm always going to fall.I told you in the beginning that I wasn't going to wait for you to be perfectBut sometimes I feel you hesitating and holding your breath for me.You tell me that you love me and that you're forever only mineBut I still fear for the day you tell me that you're lying.